You know you have a problem when you feel left out of something you don't even WANT to be included in.
Why am I an idiot?

So Valentine's Day was good
With exception to the fact that I'm sick
Vince and I went to Benihanna
And then came back to my house to watch Harry Potter
I'm a little upset that my Valentine's Day didn't involve a new cute pair of underwear
But hey, I trust my judgment on that one
And I think it was a good call
I can't really figure out if what's going on with Vince and me will last
Because who knows what 2 or 3 months of us not seeing each other will bring?
I don't really want to say "Oh well" but what else is there besides that?

This is going to be just like last time
Where he only picks up his phone when he feels like it
And he "likes" me but he will never date me
Because of either his friends, or he's a lying sack of shit
Who doesn't like me at all

Well, fuck him if he gets mad at me for finding something of substance.

People don't deserve second chances

The hens they all cackle, the roosters all beg,
But I will not hatch, I will not hatch.
For I hear all the talk of pollution and war
As the people all shout and the airplane roar,
So I'm staying in here where it's safe and it's warm,
And I WILL NOT HATCH!

-Shel Silverstein

I just updated my firefox to the latest version
I wish I hadn't done that, it looks strange and I don't like it.
Oh, and by the way-
You're an idiot. Yes, you.
I'm not playing fucking games.
So, you're going to have to play with yourself.

I can get my license now.
Sweet. I guess.
I don't want it, but it'll get my dad off my back.
He said as long as I get it, he doesn't care if I drive.
Which is stupid of him, cause he'll just be paying unneeded insurance.
So I guess I'm taking my driving test on Friday.
Oh, and best of all-
When I do feel like driving anywhere
It'll be in a purple pick up truck.
How friggin' awesome is that!?
It's the only part I'm looking forward to.

I also have to get a job. ;-;

Oh yeah, and sometimes I wonder
What certain people were like before they got stoned every day.

SP2PER3: Lindsay stop playing that dumb game

He was talking about this:
http://www.popcap.com/games/chuzzle
And I laughed pretty hard.

This summer, so far, seems like it's going to suck.
And it's only 4 days into it.
Alex doesn't realize, there's no one on my phone to call
Other than him
He said we're going to ween me off of him
So I'll be okay when he goes to college
I'll kill him. I swear to you, I will.
I need more friends.
Or at least- more people to serve as entertainment.
I gave this boy from my gym class my number
But I don't know if he'll call
I figure he will, but you never know these things
I told him not to give me his
Because out of boredom I'd probably call him incessantly

So, Sunday didn't work out.
But what was supposed to take place last Sunday
Has been moved to next Sunday
And will hopefully follow through.

I need to sew something. I think.

When you're over it,
You're over it.
He's over it.
I guess I have to be over it too.

And I can't wait until Sunday.
I have all this excitement rushing through me.
I hope it all amounts to what I expect it to be.

lazybum8998: and holy fuck
Subtly Dramatic: ?
lazybum8998: did I ask you out?
Subtly Dramatic: .... lol?
lazybum8998: i dont remember doing that... *cocks head*
Subtly Dramatic: the Prom note
Subtly Dramatic: You idiot. lol
lazybum8998: did i?
lazybum8998: haha, awesome
Subtly Dramatic: ... how do you not remember?
Subtly Dramatic: I just smacked myself in the head for you.

Yay! Facebook!

Bah, I'm going to Prom with Alex, I suppose.
It's not the same.
Seeing Dan there with someone else will be really hard.
That especially depends on who it is.

Acen this weekend.
I'm not excited anymore.
It's been difficult to look forward to anything.

It hurts to realize that I've lost everything
And he's looking to find something else

I wish that wishes came true.